I've been itching to show you some of my newest lyrics, but knowing that I'll be putting some of these songs up for you in early 2010, I'm finding myself wanting to keep a little bit of the mystery under wraps. I want you to hear them, not read them. But I do want to give you a sneak peek at the titles of the songs that I've written in the last two months. Just some physical evidence of the creativity gods at work! Here they are...
Anymore
Empty and Stealing From Me
Full Circle
Immortal Like You
Karma
Let Me Go
Messiah
Not Who I Have Been
Pause
Pedestal
Sleeping Under the Stars
Strange Escape
Talking Heads
The Will to Thrive
This Time Forever
Ugly/Beautiful
Work of Trickery/Counterfeit Masterpiece
You're No Hero
I've never felt as connected to the creative source as I do right now. My lyrics have veered from their former direction. They're still about growing and healing, but they're also about speaking personal truths and painting my own biographical musical mural...
I have real stories to tell. It's no longer about convincing the world that I am worthy of a chance. (I now know that I am, and I need no permission from anyone. Thank you to the ones who taught me that, in particular Ani and Miriam.) What my art is about now is expression and contributing something to the people who enjoy music.
I'm finding my identity again. And I'm finding so much of the old me in the new me. 2009 began with sadness but it soon brought love and liberation. I'm working on a lot behind the scenes right now, but the target for the beginning of the new Kelley-Online.com, including music, is March 2010. So stay with me.
If you've read this far and you aren't already fully connected, I'd love for you to subscribe to this page via RSS, email, or better yet follow me on Twitter @kelleyonline - I really do love you guys. You've been here a damn long time and I appreciate that so deeply. Your reward for all that patience is coming. Xo
I'm so happy that you are finally getting all that music out. It's great to know how happy you are and how comfortable you are in your own skin. There was never nothing wrong with you to start. I can't wait to hear your music, and I hope we can do Karaoke at KC club soon. I always feel so proud of you when you sing. Keep up the good work!
Love,
Ani
Ani, sorry it took me a while to respond! I think these kind of issues come and go. Did you see Janet Jackson's 20/20 interview recently? She spoke about self esteem issues and the book she's writing about that, and I am really looking forward to reading it. (I hope it actually comes out--you know those Jacksons procrastinate even worse than I do. LOL)
I've put a lot of work into my confidence over the years, and though that waxes and wanes like most things do, the fear disappears when I get that microphone in my hand. That's where I belong. The music is the best thing for me. Thanks for always being there through all the years! I am grateful as always! Miss ya and looking forward to hanging out tomorrow.